And like pretty much everyone else competing at the Arnold Classic Australian Pole Championship Series – I am freaking out. Which means I have a whole week of freaky out to do, as I don’t get on stage till Sunday Lunchtime.
Training for a comp is physically & emotionally demanding work, some are better cut out for it than others, I use to love it, I think. I do not remember for sure. I remember the feeling of nervous, mostly at the comp, just before I hit the stage. Before that, I was pretty cool, calm & collected (but I am sure others will tell you different & maybe they are right), but I do remember the adrenaline rush I use to get coming off stage & if we are honest that’s the feeling I am chasing. I haven’t been on stage as a pole soloist in such a long time, I haven’t tested myself out or pushed myself hard enough in a long time. And the few occasions that have presented themselves since then haven’t resulted in that rush like I thought they would. Maybe it’s because the opportunities weren’t similar to what I had done before, maybe it’s because I know where I use to be physically and I am no way close to that, perhaps it’s just gone. My life has changed so much, since the last time I did a pole comp & maybe I need to find a way to get that new rush. Either way, I am hoping to find out Sunday.
Training has been something of a challenge, particularly the Semi-Pro category. I knew it was going to be hard & that was the aim
To push me
Get myself fit again
Find my passion for pole
Get one of the creative concepts out of my head & on to the stage ( been sitting on a few for a while due to me being on the sidelines for such a long time)
Where I am at now
Disappointed that I have had to modify my routine from what was in my head twice now to what was physically possible
Worried that I will look very out of place in a semi-pro category, but at this stage I am hoping for a clean run through of a modified routine
Worried about my grip on 45mm Brass Poles (I haven’t trained on Brass in a long time & it wasn’t great then)
However, I am happy with the progress I have made – fitness wise.
Love my costume & it’s looking good, even if not quite finished & works well with the routine, even with a few pins still in it from my run through on Saturday Night at mPole’s End of Term 1 Party.
Wish me luck.
Written Leeanne Taylor